I think Sami is holding me back.

I have never felt so alone like this in a while. I barley have any friends, and the 3 that I do have I swear like Sami more. My sister is in Louisiana. And Sami is always so blinded with her own shit that she doesn’t realize anything. I don’t have hobbies. I hang out with friends. That’s how it has always been. Friends are my hobby, and I don’t know how to escape it. Especially when they are so limited. I don’t go to school, and everyone at my job I already knew. I’m lost, and I don’t know what to do. I wish it wasn’t so hard to meet people, or wish it wasn’t weird to talk to random people on facebook just so I can try to make new friends. I don’t have a car to go anywhere, and once again I don’t have any hobbies. I get bored with things too fast, and I result to hanging out with friends to cure my loneliness. I need someone, anyone that likes doing what I do, and is okay with it. I’m lost.

You’re friends with someone in grade school, and keep in touch when that person moves. Then you become best friends with someone and then all of a sudden Junior year rolls by and that person comes back and you introduce the two. Then the 3 of you are perfect together then one of you gets caught then the other two decide to skip school and do more drugs instead of talking to the person that can’t do drugs anymore and ever since then that person you met in grade school likes your best friend more than you. 

I hate it.